I know I will never be good enough for anyone and trust me I've stopped expecting. I've stopped hoping and most importantly, I've stopped loving. I'm isolating myself from everything. I'm not the same Apple Jane that you used to know. Do not say that I'm stupid just because I harm myself. You don't know anything about my pain. Sad but true that only a blade can make me feel better. If I don't think about God and my mom, I would've suicide long time ago. There is just so much sadness to bear. The only thing that I do everyday is pray to God that may he take my life sooner so I would not take my own life. Because taking your own life is a sin right? The nearer my birthday, the sadder I am. The fuck? Why should I be feeling this way? I should be happy but I'm not. So granny wants to cook for my birthday and I don't feel like celebrating. Oh gosh! Wth is wrong with me. Mummy will be leaving for Perak this friday and she will be there till tuesday. May she have a safe journey. As soon as I went in the class early in the morning, Pezy told me that I'm number 17 in the class. I was so disappointed because all the cheaters are above me. Hail the cheaters. Boooooooo! But base on the result, I've improved a lot. Amen to that.




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I’m the type of person that enjoys making an impact on people’s day. I enjoy putting a smile on others faces. It doesn’t matter if they are a complete stranger or a best friend. I treat everyone with the same amount of respect. I’m the type of person that says “please” and “thank you”. The person that holds the door open for you. The person that lets you cut ahead in line. The person that says “bless you” when you sneeze. The person that spots you a couple dollars if you need it. The person that picks up your pencil off the floor. The person that reminds you that not everyone is cold hearted and distant. The person that shows you that not all good people are gone. The one that makes an impact on your day whether it be only for a minute or a lifetime. I’m the person that shows you that there still is hope in humanity. I’m the person that believes acts of kindness can change the world for the better.

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