It makes you see things as if they are completely pointless and could flicker out of existence at any second. There isn’t really a way to get that sense of being connected unless one can realise that despite the signals that are being emitted, it is not so, it’s very much the opposite. 

It’s impossible for someone this deep in, to seem connected to anything, because they aren’t even connected to themselves. They can be connected to things, they just experience it a lot differently, which in a way makes it seem like they aren’t at all. They fall in love basically the same. They experience the same feelings, but are experienced a lot differently. They fall in love, but experience it as if they are not actually the ones falling in love. It’s as if it’s happening to someone else, and they are only observing it. They are simultaneously are, and are not connected. Life essentially becomes like watching a shitty movie, but that shitty movie is your whole reality and if you turn it off you have nothing. Hope that one day it might actually go back to normal again. It can happen, it’s more of a defence mechanism then a problem in itself, and it’s when it is targeted as a problem, it puts out more of itself to protect them from it, and ends up in a fucked up cycle. 

Caused by many things, like questioning existence too much. It’s difficult, it’s like asking someone decently deep into it to seem connected, is like trying to ask someone loaded up on drugs to form a coherent sentence. Everything becomes complicated, because the fact that it’s a defines mechanism you are trying to get rid of, tends to make the puzzle change as you attempt to solve it. Each person has to solve it themselves, in the end, they are the only one with the ‘cure’ so to speak. End it, when they become so overwhelmed by it, they stop trying to solve it, and stop caring…just dive into it. 

I can only recognise it, or at least try to, as something that fucks with a person’s senses.

A person’s life can have their whole reality stripped from underneath them. Like a lucid dream, where one can fade out, part of this is feeling like it’s suppose to fade out, but it never does. Things tend to look very much like that, except something in the back of your head which makes you realise that it’s real. Like a glitch in the human mind.